i'm glad school's over... NOT!

i miss buying epok-epok and nuggets every tea break time and i miss sitting at the oasis talking, eating, playing cards and later mugging.. i miss going around looking out for our "cg"s though eye candy in our school was almost non-existant(note: "almost" hehe)
i miss dragging ourselves to classes then lectures and lunch, i miss persuading you guys to skip classes or lectures, i miss ama's and ilda's bluff bluff scolding when we skip lectures but in the end they still let us borrow their notes :) thanks darlings.. i miss being poked in the ribs by yanti when i fall asleep in classes or lectures.. and i miss waking up with a start and a half-scream.. i miss trying to stay awake in classes.. i miss bitching and complaining about teachers (ok i won't name them).. i miss malay dancing after school.. i miss spontaneously going out to eat at sakura after sch.. i miss feeling all the aches and blisters and suffering together after dance.. i miss chem remedials and math remedials.. i miss mrs tan's brownies.. i miss going to PA on sunday mornings all sleepy and "ready" to dance.. i miss my bimbos.. i miss our silly photos (ala bond).. i miss all the times we stayed back like for deepavali dance.. i miss all the festivals we had like lantern fest.. i miss coming late for school and trying to avoid SP.. i miss coming to school so late that the side gates are closed.. i miss the numerous ways we managed to get in and out of school (under gate, over gate, through the drain haha) i miss my class.. i miss worrying about how i'm failing everything by turns and trying to figure out which subject to drop, and in the end "dropping" econs (i.e. not studying, giving up and not
attending remedials).. i miss sleepy gp classes and the "discussions" we had haha :) i miss my jonathan.. i miss secretly meeting him and in the end getting found out.. i miss skipping school with him to "study" haha.. i miss pe.. i miss playing captain's ball.. i miss our silly tennis sessions where we didnt even manage to return the ball more than twice.. i miss so many things.. there's so much more but i won't bore you anymore.. sigh... :/

i didnt think i'd feel this way but when i was in school and when i saw some of my friends, all the memories rushed back and i realised how much i had.. and how much i've lost.. well i guess i havent lost all of it, still keeping it here in my heart :) aww...
and i realised how much i've grown (not just in height haha) but in character.. i've grown so much in the past 2 years i've almost totally changed.. i've learnt so much, on my own and through my friends.. i've learnt that its ok to let go.. i've learnt that the old saying "a friend in need is a friend indeed" is so true however cliched it sounds.. i've learnt that i'm no better than the next person but at the same time i've learnt that i am special in my own way.. i've learnt to be humble and not to be too judgemental or critical.. i've learnt that heartbreak is not the end of the world.. i've learnt that i can love again.. i've learnt so many other things that i cant really put down..

ok i think this post is getting too long.. and too sentimental and too personal.. sigh